The Truth

My summer was wrought with realities from which I am still reeling...going home always seem to rip at the paper thin semblance of sanity you thought you had so artfully put together. I'm sure you know what I mean...I apologize for the silence...
the lab

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Black Wombmyn Chat said…
Hmmm... I look forward to hearing your observations, Lab. I'm going back home in a month and will be spending at least a week with my fam. Wonder how that will be...

I want to be able to indulge in the beauty of the intense love and connection with my fam, but at the same time, I want to preserve the artfully constructed distance I've built between us.

I don't want to go back to being the person I used to be. I want to love them with my new understanding. I don't choose to believe that in order to re-connect, I have to somehow return to the person I used to be.

I hope they don't think I'm aloof, or worse, uppity or condescending. At the same time, I hope I don't feel compelled to feel guilty for trying to preserve my sanity!
8:11 PM
Anonymous said…
I def understand. I'll be headed home in October to see the family.
9:42 PM
Katness said…
No apologies needed. I been where you are too. Write. It helps.
5:08 PM
Anonymous said…
I can relate to all of this. I just returned from visiting my family in my native Panama.

Saludos,
Ana
2:47 PM
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