Vent from the Anonymous Colored Girl

(from a recent email from a friend of mine):

You know why you feel depressed?

I think I know why I do......conformity feels shitty! Why do we have to be so damn nice all the time? Why do we have to prove ourselves beyond what we expect from others? Why is it that there are some people just waiting in the dust, looking as if they want us to fail? Yes....I might feel sort of down right now. Yes, I might be in over my head. But that's my fucken business. Why is it that the fucken ugliest people are waiting in the dust to see me with dirt in my face? Sometimes I feel like walking right up to them and saying.....what the fuck? You know what.....? Do you wanna know what? Cuz I'm about to get nasty and ethnic on your fucken ass!

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Vakker Kvinne said…
Oh my GOD-I felt like that two days last week with one of the other expats here. I was thinking "who in the hell do you think you are" and why am I walking away.

I guess I'm the better person..but I still wanted to get ethnic and up in her face.
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